Pour Your Heart Out

Okay so my sister told me about this blog, which I found to be really awesome. And she told me to do this pour your heart out thing on Wednesdays. So I am not quite sure what I am going to write about, or exactly how to do this, but of course I'm gonna try.




So I want to talk about all of these people who make my life tolerable.

Let's start with Kayleigh. I love that girl so much its absolutely mind blowing. We have been together for almost a year now. Which is the longest I have ever been continuously faithful and committed to one individual. She tied me down, and I am still not sure how. However, I'm glad she did. She is literally my reason for waking up every day. If i did not have her to wake up next to, I'm not sure I would find it within myself to get up and function. We fight so much its crazy. We do not always get along. Actually we almost never get along anymore, but the moments that we do are so worth it. I heard that the key to a successful relationship is never going to sleep angry, I think I've been awake for almost a year now. lol. I would not trade s single fight or argument or sleepless night for the world. At least I don't think I would. ...

My mom...yep, at twenty years old I still need my mommy to get me through the day. Sadly she lives over 3000 miles away from me and I have not seen her in almost a year. Which breaks my heart. She still calls me (or texts me, because yes, my mother has fallen into the world of texting now) every single day to ask how work was and to remind me to do my laundry, and be respectful to those around me. It's like she is right here with me. I love it. I miss her so much I can hardly talk to her without lashing out in anger now. She picked up and left to please my brother and sister. My brother is sixteen and should not have a say in the location of my mother. My sister ( one of many) is a completely controlling manipulative...something or another....and I hate that she convinced my mother to leave.

My Rylie May...how weird is it that a two year old is someone who can make life worth living? This little girl turned my life around. I went from being the kind of person who just did not care, made horrible decisions, and looked so down on myself, to being the kind of person who looks for reasons to be happy. The decisions I make now are not just for myself, but for that little girl. She is my favorite cousin's daughter, and I thank my cousin everyday for bringing Rylie here to save my life.

So there you have it, my few people that have continuously made my world spin. I love them dearly. And would not be who I am without them.